Realizations while walking.

Days feel like weeks, yet weeks feel like days.
Finishing one task at a time.
I'm so busy, but I really haven't accomplished much.
I think I'm a bit frazzled this week.
I'm all over the place and kind of disoriented,
I think I need to pull myself together.
But I think one of the good things about this week,
was that is let me forget about things momentarily.
Since I was constantly doing something, or stressing about work I needed to do.
It made me forget about the issues I have with you these days.
And for the other you, it made me forget how much I hate you, and how much I like you at the same time.
And it made me miss you guys a little less.
It made me forget about a lot of things that clouded my thoughts for the past couple months.
Slightly liberating.
Busy, but this is kind of nice.
But the thoughts are never gone.
Any moment I have to breathe, I start thinking about everything again.
I hate distance.
But then everything happens for a reason right?
I always think its funny how I get so caught up in what's happening in the moment,
that I can't even remember how I ended up in the situations that I'm in.
I sit there puzzled for a moment.
When did we become so grumpy?
When did we stop talking?
How did we get so close?
When was the last time I saw you?
How do we know each other again?
When did I start ignoring you?
What was it I saw in you?
When did you stop being funny to me?
I realized today with all the people I hold dear to me currently,
I can't seem to place all the moments that led up to now.
And I realize that time passes so quickly, and I haven't done anything significant yet,
and that's kinda of really starting to stress me out.
Because I still don't know how to get where I want,
and I feel like I'm running out of time,
because I'm wallowing in these everyday things that I have to accomplish.
I think I stopped looking at the big picture.
And I think I forgot about important things.
I can't just leave things unfinished.
Whether it be my work or my personal life.
So after this busy couple of weeks I'm going to have to try and regather myself and my thoughts,
see things out that need to be seen out, end things that aren't going anywhere.

I think the cold weather is helping me be a happier person, cleaning my slate of summer.