I wish I could sing no regrets, and no emotional debts.

Tears Dry On Their Own
So Tears Dry On Their Own has always been my favorite song by Amy, but I've never really listened to the lyrics.
Since the melody is pretty upbeat, I thought it was a cheerful song, but the other day I looked up the lyrics and it's completely different from what I originally thought.
And the lyrics are so unique. Idk I've never really found a song expressing those ideas or feelings,
and i find it really refreshing. It's not so cliche.
I just think its a much more realistic view of how things work in life.
Because she doesn't blame other people for why things happen
and doesn't sugarcoat things.
She just sings it how it is.
I like that very much.

Harvard 2008 Commencement Speech
On a different note, Patrick Moore emailed me J.K Rowling's commencement speech to Harvard's 2008 graduating class and its so wonderful.
idk i can't even say anything about it without sounding ridiculously emotionally and cheesy so i'm just going to leave the link so you can watch for yourself. And i have to put in a couple quotes from the speech.

"As is a tale, so is life: not how long it is, but how good it is, is what matters."
"So why do I talk of the benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the inessential."


And now to talk about myself. HA. I love how self centered I can be on this....because it is...afterall my blog.. i feel like everything is very stagnant right now. or like i'm just treading water. and nothing is too terrible, but nothing is that great either. i just want for SOMETHING in my life to progress. I guess i'm ready for school to start. I love my friends so much. so so very much. but i want to meet new people that will make me excited again in a way that only new friends can make you feel.

Back to Amy. There's one part in the song, "so this is inevitable withdrawal"
that i really like. and i feel like that's how things are
with college coming really, so soon.
that all the new friendships and promises i make to do this and that with people,
are all just empty promises.
because my life is about to change so drastically so soon,
and i just wonder what are the things that will stay the same,
what are the friendships that i will keep?
i just don't know
and there are things that i want, but i don't even know if i will still want them in a month.
and they seem so important to me at this time, but really, really really really things are changing rapidly in my life right now
and its hard to keep track emotionally with how everything adds up to me in my mind
and now im rambling..
but i feel like im trapped in this bubble of things. and because there are so many things that are changing, they pass me by
without being able to fully comprehend them so its kinda
like this rush of events and i don't get to experience them
so its like this blur and nothing seems meaningful because i'm just trying to get through and get everything done
but it feels like im missing out more than ever
i want to slow down
but fast forward at the same time.