hi there..

hello my dear blog,
how are you today
?
i'm doing alright.
i like having my blog to talk to
when i can't talk to people
because alot of people don't really want to listen
and its great that no one really reads this.

So life should be good. I got into college, i got a 4.0, i'm a second semester senior
but its not as satisfying as i thought it would be..
because i'm still me, and just because i'm a second semester senior doesn't change who i am
and how people perceive me
but i'm sick of being everyones little lisa
i'm sick of being babied and embarrassed, its not cute
but whatever.



chris just called me and we talked so i feel better kinda



but i'll continue anyway..
i wish i had small earphones instead of my huge dre beats so that i can listen to music at school
without standing out, and block out all the dumb shit people say at school.
i wish i could wear the earbuds so that some people wouldn't talk to me. or they would know when i had my earbuds in, that they shouldn't talk to me.
because i'm so sick of pretending to pay attention to stupid things any longer.
i'm so sick of facebook, the people i'm "friends" with on facebook are so uninteresting.
they're level of amusement, or at least what they display of it on facebook are so shallow.
i'm so tired of being connected, social networking during all hours of my day.
which is why i like you, my dear blog. because i see this as more self reflection.
because i'm writing in this blog just for myself. to make myself feel better.

im thinking i should start reading more, but i need some good recommendations.
as of now i'm halfway through reading into the wild. which is really good, but it isn't exactly my kind of genre.
but it is a really fantastic book so far.

and now im getting frustrated because there's more i want to say, but i don't know what it is that im itching to say.
i've been listening to the same song for the past four days on loop.. and its such a good song. but its also depressing.
i still can't think of what i need to say. and im getting really annoyed.

goodnight my blog, if i think of what i need to say you'll hear from me later.